Every New Year, or some time soon after, I do a ritual and pick a theme to embody a new quality as part of my growth. My theme for 2017 was Devotion. And wow it has really stretched me! Devotion was something I felt called to embody, both in my personal life and in my work.
Here are few things that I learned from Devotion and how it relates to fertility.
Devotion is a form of love, where we embrace action inspired by love.
On my personal life as we grew our family by welcoming a new baby Devotion asked a higher level of awareness and presence. With two little ones this can feel impossible at times. There were so many times I felt pulled apart by the constant needs from my children that I thought I’d never have time for me and my dreams. Devotion asked me to be patient. Compassionate. To take just the next breathe and next step. Embodying Devotion for myself and my self care was really a challenge. Then I remembered my fertility journey. I’m glad I had established routines and practices for self care. Of course they were all shaken countless times, but it felt good to remember when I needed them and be able to tap in those practices to reconnect with my center. "Ironically, the fertility journey is never a waste of time!" I thought. "It has so many golden nuggets!"
At the same time, Devotion asked me to be present and hold space for the resolution of some family issues related with my mom’s health. In the middle of my own family transition I could have wanted to avoid dealing with all this, but Devotion showed me the opportunity to grow and deepen my relationship with my brother as we danced in the unknown and uncomfortable. After some deep work with energy, clearing, aligning and setting intentions of the highest light, things are unfolding beautifully. But again, Devotion asked me to practice patience and showed me the gift in the other side. The gift was a deep sense of connection and healing with my family, the acknowledgement of our sacred contracts and witnessing how they are beautifully playing out.
In Devotion for my work I took a training course on writing (which wasn’t about grammar, in case you find something in here ;-). I spent a good amount of time tapping in the pain of our human experiences, finding the golden nuggets, and trying to bring them to light, to bring love and light in the world. For sure it was a really beautiful healing process. When I looked into my life, my gifts, my training, my experiences, my own journey, I realized that all of that was part of something bigger, was part of my work in the world. It was in Devotion that I created the space to integrate and craft had the intention of making it accessible to others.
And in Devotion to the upcoming children I remembered their request from my work with their parents: “Love them up”, they’ve asked.
Quite often we live under so much pressure to 'do', to ‘have’, to ‘be’. Just think for a moment. How are you feeling pressured to do/ have/ be something? It happens to many of us all the time. Fertility/ children/ creations/ work/ physical appearance/ you name it/ are areas where we are constantly being pressured to achieve. And many times we forget that we are actually in a path, just perfect, just whole beings. This past year as I sat with Devotion I was reminded so many times that
Our journeys are just perfect and they bring just the perfect medicine we need.
In that regard I feel my work and soul purpose is to be a catalyst to remember this: that we are whole. And while catalysis means change, I see it rather as an evolving, exploratory journey, an adventure to find our golden nuggets and experience joy along the way.
When we are in the journey of fertility we tend to think that there is a problem in our body, that something is broken, that we have something ‘to fix’, that time is running out. Nothing further away from LOVE, right?
I believe that the fertility journey is one of the many paths leading to awakening. Of course, for those who desire to embrace it. I see it as an opportunity to embody Devotion, in every area of our life aligning actions inspired by Love. Looking back at my journey I see I embraced Devotion early on and it was probably that what led me to this new understanding and way of supporting my clients. When we call devotion, as when we call fertility in, we are asked to embody this quality in every area of our lives, led by love. Self love. Love to others. In the other side, abundant blessings and joy await, because love is the universal creative power.
As I’m feeling into my theme and intentions for 2018, I’m trying to stay quiet, and listen carefully what is *really* desiring to be birth and channeled through me. I want to find balance in ‘doing’, and ‘having’ to have more space for ‘being’.
Anything worth ‘doing’ has to be in service of bringing love into the world. That’s what I learned from Devotion.
If you are called to explore in depth what is desiring to be channeled through you and work in creating space and routines that support you aligning with your call, whether a baby or a soul project, I have few spots for one on one coaching, and I'd love to explore together how I could support you. Just send me a message and I'll be here for you. In Devotion.